lotsofplants

I've been thinking about this. I think a lot of it is that there are different kinds of patience. One can learn, for instance, to be patient with other living things, through love or resignation, for they will go at their own speed and perform at their own level. :) And one can learn to be patient with tedious tasks, watching a gradual accumulation of progress and knowing that one is slowly approaching some goal. But things that are not entirely in one's control, yet which one has some feeling of responsibility for, are different from the types of patience I have. There are things I want *now*, despite the fact that I have no way to get them, and may not, in fact, be ready for them. And there are things I cannot change, and will never be able to change (unless someone grants me those five minutes of omnipotence :), but which must be changed. And to a certain extent, that lack of patience or discontent with the current conditions is a positive motivation, and to a certain extent it is a source of frustration bordering on despair. Both are difficult to deal with.